hello all man this is weird i coment and i post pretty often but i never get any coments back rarely one or two coments a post   i don't know why  i just kinda feel down about that but ill get over  it  today was  a pretty good day long but good i was very tired my room mate locked me out of the room bye accident  he left the key in the door on the inside so i couldn't unlock it from the outside and it was pretty late so i didn't want to wake him up to open the door so i went up the main place and grabbed a blanket and went up to a room and turned some worship music on and slept in the presence of the lord  well it got cold in the room so it was hard to sleep so i didn't get much sleep last night and well this morning in prayer meeting i was like half asleep and half awake and so as i would sleep i would wake up and say yess lord in adgreement with the lady who was praying or guy and then i would go back to sleep i know that sounds bad but i was extreamly tired  and then ontop of that i had to do some work and it involved clibming on a ladder to change light bulbs and man did i feel wierd on that ladder like i was going to fall off because i was so tired but i didn't thanku god he kept me safe throughout the day  and i thank him for it well thats the story of my day  god bless

some times i wonder why we loose people that are closest to us all my life it seems that ive lost people closest to me or some one that i was friends with lost a parent to cancer. when i was four there was a very special person in my life named bev kersherner she was my moms best friend and like a second mother to me well she was diagnosed with breast cancer and well i hated seeing her in pain it was the worst feeling ever at four years old i could tell somebody was going through a hard time once my dad drove up to her house to give her a bunch of flowers and he asked me if i wanted to go up and see her well i saw a bandanna on her head not knowing that she lost all her hair but me seing that bandanna on her head i knew something was wrong so i said no because i didn't want to see her up close going through pain but me not going up there didn't stop me not seing her going through pain instead of me going up there she came down to see me she was so extreamly strong she told me every thing was going to be allright that she was fine and that it was just a bandanna but i new she didn't just wear bandannas i never seen one on her before and i was at her house bassicaly every single day and never seen a bandanna on her before. so i knew some thing was wrong but i believed her that every thing was going to be allright that she was going to be allright but a few months later she died  i didn't go to the funeral because she said she was fine so i didn't want to believe that she died i know god has a purpose for everything that his will is right  but it can be so hard to go through her death but i was allitle mad at god when i was five years old  but i got better and was able to ask for forgiveness for being mad at him and was able to know that his plan is perfect still to this day i don't see why his will was for her to die but maybe some day i will see why i hope i thank god for helping me not take offence and still to this day he is helping me with it because i really believe that god uses peoples deaths for the best yeah its hard really hard i know ive lost 4 people that i was really close with that i loved very much but god helps us through everything he is always there for us and i thank him so much for helping me thanks for reading this whole thing sorry it was so long god bless bye bye bye